...of thought.
Maggie Moo's is gone. It used to be just down the street from work, but it's gone. Not that I ever went there - I forgot about it. That little shopping center is in such an odd location. Even when I was planning the wedding that won't happen I never went to the bridal shop over there and I went to every bridal shop in Murfreesboro, or at least attempted to.
Location, location, location, I thought to myself as I drove by it yesterday. Location is such a big factor in the decision for a new business.
Then I thought about how often I've made decisions about lunch or dinner based on what side of the interstate that it was on, whether or not I'd have to turn left without a light on to a major highway when I leave the restaurant, and whether or not they're near that intersection that I detest.
The I went on to think about how I make decisions in general. Yes, there are many decisions that I make based on my belief in Christ, but it's less about what would please the One who loves me than it's about what would fulfill all the rules that I've memorized as though I'm checking off a list. Other decisions are based on what I want, what I feel I deserve, what I feel like doing, what I prefer, what I think is best, what I think is easiest, what I, what I, what I. Whose approval am I seeking? Who am I trying to impress?
Legalistic, imaginary checklists. Complete and utter selfishness. Seeking approval from men and women. Trying to impress men and women. This is how I make decisions in general. And typically, my decisions have failed in many ways, and I never get done all that I know needs to be done. Mainly because I don't feel like doing it so I decide to do what I DO feel like doing.
Who am I deciding is more worthy of being pleased than the Lover of my soul? Apparently myself and every other created being. That the first decision that I'm reworking.
Maggie Moo's is gone. It used to be just down the street from work, but it's gone. Not that I ever went there - I forgot about it. That little shopping center is in such an odd location. Even when I was planning the wedding that won't happen I never went to the bridal shop over there and I went to every bridal shop in Murfreesboro, or at least attempted to.
Location, location, location, I thought to myself as I drove by it yesterday. Location is such a big factor in the decision for a new business.
Then I thought about how often I've made decisions about lunch or dinner based on what side of the interstate that it was on, whether or not I'd have to turn left without a light on to a major highway when I leave the restaurant, and whether or not they're near that intersection that I detest.
The I went on to think about how I make decisions in general. Yes, there are many decisions that I make based on my belief in Christ, but it's less about what would please the One who loves me than it's about what would fulfill all the rules that I've memorized as though I'm checking off a list. Other decisions are based on what I want, what I feel I deserve, what I feel like doing, what I prefer, what I think is best, what I think is easiest, what I, what I, what I. Whose approval am I seeking? Who am I trying to impress?
Legalistic, imaginary checklists. Complete and utter selfishness. Seeking approval from men and women. Trying to impress men and women. This is how I make decisions in general. And typically, my decisions have failed in many ways, and I never get done all that I know needs to be done. Mainly because I don't feel like doing it so I decide to do what I DO feel like doing.
Who am I deciding is more worthy of being pleased than the Lover of my soul? Apparently myself and every other created being. That the first decision that I'm reworking.
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