Today's my birthday. Whoo freaking hoo.
(Before you read any further, I must tell you that the girls and celebrated Friday night and it was fantastic. Dad took me to lunch today. Roomie hung signs and bought ice cream. The PU's (parental units) are taking me to Maggiano's Saturday. I am loved by my friends and family and I love them and enjoy them.)
I'm 33.
I still live in an apartment.
I have a roommate.
My job is nowhere near my dream job (although my company is wonderful.)
I'm still single.
I'm not seeing anyone.
I'm either a sad joke or the sterotypical beginning to a chick lit novel (minus long flowing hair, which I chopped after yet another failed relationship.)
Stop rolling your eyes. It may sound self pitying, but it hurts. I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything and that I'm simply taking up space that would be better filled by someone who would only take up half of it. I love my friends, and I love my amazingly intelligent dog, but I spend so much of my time feeling isolated and I'm not really sure how to come out of it.
Please, no one throw me the "Be patient he's out there" or "you have to be the right one to get the right one" speeches. He may not be out there. There may never be a right one. There may never be children.
That thought angers me, scares me, tires me, and makes me want to scream.
Reflection should not have been the word for the day.
I've never been sad about a birthday. I generally love my birthdays. Maybe it's because this one follows a cancelled wedding and the near disappearance of my social cirlce. Who knows. Either way, I kinda wish I'd slept through it. (Just today. Not the wonderful time Friday night.)
In other news, Gracie can sit, lay down, come, shake hands, and sit up on command. Stitches are out, incisions healed nicely, she did great at the second round of boosters, and I failed miserably already at the no Dr. Pepper thing.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
I finally adopted a puppy after months of looking! Here's my beautiful girl, Gracie. As cute as she is in this picture, it doesn't begin to do her justice. She has the most beautiful green eyes, and she's a smooth-coated chihuahua/border collie mix. I know - she'll be crazy active! I went looking for a lab puppy, but one look at this little baby and my heart melted. She loves to snuggle, seems to be ok with big dogs, and is the most intelligent girl ever. She's potty trained already, knows how to "sit," "bring me your toy," "drop it," and "go to kennel." She's 10 weeks old and completely perfect. She's not the breed I was looking for - I went to the pound that day hoping for a male yellow lab. Instead, I took one look at this girl and fell in love. She's recovering from surgery now. In addition to being spayed, she had a hernia the size of a baseball that had to be fixed. She's supposed to stay crated for a total of three weeks, and that's been very hard. I can't wait until she's all better and big enough to go to the dog park and run. She loves her toys, and I look forward to being able to throw frisbees to her and take her to obedience classes. She meets Bailey and Sam pretty soon... curious to see how she likes my other babies!
It's my turn - 101 in 1001
Stole some of these from MelindaJ because she finished writing her list before me... even though I started 2 months ago.
not yet... but soon.
in progress
finished!
1. Take a cake decorating class.
2. Take a flower arranging class.
3. Except for student loans, get out of debt.
4. Go a full month without Dr. Pepper.
5. Go to bed before midnight 4 days of every week for three months.
6. Lose the weight.
7. Get a dog. (brought Gracie home 3/12/10)
8. Take Gracie to obedience classes.
9. Work on my novel every day for 2 months, even if I only get out 50 words.
10. Read the Bible cover to cover.
11. Get a passport.
12. Tie a note to a balloon and let it go.
13. Bring my lunch to work 100 times – (5/100)
14. Build an emergency fund of $1,000.
15. Open a checking account.
16. Finish writing this freaking list. 3/21/10
17. Lead my Gracie through the Canine Good Citizen Test.
18. Walk "across Tennessee" (0/432 miles)
19. Pay for the person behind me in the drive-thru
20. Tithe for 3 straight months.
21. Meet 5 old friends I've reconnected with on Facebook but haven't seen since high school for lunch. (0/5)
22. Send 50 Christmas cards
23. Get a new car.
24. No pizza for 3 months. (Starting 3/9/10.)
25. Take 10 one day breaks from the internet. Work sites at work don't count. (2/10)
26. Host a dinner party.
27. Keep room clean for a month.
28. Forgive Joey. For real this time.
29. Mail in a secret to Post Secret
30. Use my whole tanning package in a short enough time that I actually get a tan.
31. Go to the zoo without children and see ALL the animals.
32. Pay my phone bill on time for 6 months.
33. Print & frame a picture that I took.
34. Finally buy some Chanel No. 5.
35. Save $500 to take on my trip... not including hotel and airfare.
36. Learn to make Irish soda bread.
37. Learn to make zucchini bread.
38. Go to New Orleans with MelindaJ.
39. Acheive leading at work for 3 months.
40. Go on a trip with my mom.
41. Bake/cook something for my neighbors.
42. Bake cookies for the girls in the office.
43. Travel to 5 states I've never been to before.
44. Attend the symphony.
45. Try 10 new restaurants.
46. Walk a 5K.
47. Go to a wine tasting.
48. Go to the Renaissance Fair.
49. Get a massage. (3/28)
50. Go on a mission trip.
51. Go to church every Sunday for 5 months (unless ill.)
52. Go to Sunday school every week for 3 months.
53. Crochet a baby blanket.
54. Go to Omega Phi Alpha Convention
55. Go to 3 plays. (0/3)
56. Go back to school.
57. Get my teeth fixed.
58. Send a package to Mason.
59.Send a package to Tyler.
60. Send a package to Mallie.
61. Send a package to Sydney.
62. Finish laundry every week for 2 months.
63. Set a budget and adhere closely to it for 3 months, starting 3/19.
64. Paint again - a three panel painting for over the bed.
65. Have Mallie over for the weekend.
66. Build a better relationship with my sister-in-law.
67. Go see Grandmother every two weeks for 6 months.
68. Send flowers to someone.
69. Send Jacob Marler something cool.
70. Write my politicians to ask them to vote against the President's health care plan. 3/18/10
71. Yoga video every other day for three months.
72. Other workout video every other day for three months.
73. Read 5 nonfiction books.
74. Go through Financial Peace and go to each session.
75. Finish Beth Moore David study.
76. Write 5 letters and include either mom's chicken casserole recipe, the spiced apple cider recipe or Mema's sugar cookie recipe.
77. Order flags for G, B and D.
78. Jog for 20 minutes straight.
79. Drink 5 glasses of water a day for 3 weeks.
80. Plant a tree.
81. Take snack to Gabe's pack.
82. Buy 3 daring accessories and actually wear them.
83. Make a grocery list and shop from ONLY that list 5 times. (1/5)
84. Cut out coupons and actually USE them for above shopping trips.
85. Keep car clean for 6 weeks.
86. Invite Mom and Dad over for dinner once a month.
87. Take one week off from Twitter, including updates from my phone.
88. Take one week off from Facebook, including updates from my phone.
89. Purchase a piece of furniture - real furniture, not installation-required bookshelves from Target.
90. Use passport.
91. Invest in an awesome pair of black shoes.
92. Find an amazing recipe in Southern Living and perfect it.
93. Put all the recipes I clip from magazines in a binder.
94. Reupholster Mema's vanity chair.
95. Work 50 hours in a charity.
96. Decide what sort of nonprofit organization I want to start and research.
97. Take a photography class.
98. Take a ballroom dancing class.
99. Finally hang the lantern I bought 2 years ago.
100. Buy an outfit that fits at White House Black Market.
101. Make a new friend.
not yet... but soon.
in progress
finished!
1. Take a cake decorating class.
2. Take a flower arranging class.
3. Except for student loans, get out of debt.
4. Go a full month without Dr. Pepper.
5. Go to bed before midnight 4 days of every week for three months.
6. Lose the weight.
7. Get a dog. (brought Gracie home 3/12/10)
8. Take Gracie to obedience classes.
9. Work on my novel every day for 2 months, even if I only get out 50 words.
10. Read the Bible cover to cover.
11. Get a passport.
12. Tie a note to a balloon and let it go.
13. Bring my lunch to work 100 times – (5/100)
14. Build an emergency fund of $1,000.
15. Open a checking account.
16. Finish writing this freaking list. 3/21/10
17. Lead my Gracie through the Canine Good Citizen Test.
18. Walk "across Tennessee" (0/432 miles)
19. Pay for the person behind me in the drive-thru
20. Tithe for 3 straight months.
21. Meet 5 old friends I've reconnected with on Facebook but haven't seen since high school for lunch. (0/5)
22. Send 50 Christmas cards
23. Get a new car.
24. No pizza for 3 months. (Starting 3/9/10.)
25. Take 10 one day breaks from the internet. Work sites at work don't count. (2/10)
26. Host a dinner party.
27. Keep room clean for a month.
28. Forgive Joey. For real this time.
29. Mail in a secret to Post Secret
30. Use my whole tanning package in a short enough time that I actually get a tan.
31. Go to the zoo without children and see ALL the animals.
32. Pay my phone bill on time for 6 months.
33. Print & frame a picture that I took.
34. Finally buy some Chanel No. 5.
35. Save $500 to take on my trip... not including hotel and airfare.
36. Learn to make Irish soda bread.
37. Learn to make zucchini bread.
38. Go to New Orleans with MelindaJ.
39. Acheive leading at work for 3 months.
40. Go on a trip with my mom.
41. Bake/cook something for my neighbors.
42. Bake cookies for the girls in the office.
43. Travel to 5 states I've never been to before.
44. Attend the symphony.
45. Try 10 new restaurants.
46. Walk a 5K.
47. Go to a wine tasting.
48. Go to the Renaissance Fair.
49. Get a massage. (3/28)
50. Go on a mission trip.
51. Go to church every Sunday for 5 months (unless ill.)
52. Go to Sunday school every week for 3 months.
53. Crochet a baby blanket.
54. Go to Omega Phi Alpha Convention
55. Go to 3 plays. (0/3)
56. Go back to school.
57. Get my teeth fixed.
58. Send a package to Mason.
59.Send a package to Tyler.
60. Send a package to Mallie.
61. Send a package to Sydney.
62. Finish laundry every week for 2 months.
63. Set a budget and adhere closely to it for 3 months, starting 3/19.
64. Paint again - a three panel painting for over the bed.
65. Have Mallie over for the weekend.
66. Build a better relationship with my sister-in-law.
67. Go see Grandmother every two weeks for 6 months.
68. Send flowers to someone.
69. Send Jacob Marler something cool.
70. Write my politicians to ask them to vote against the President's health care plan. 3/18/10
71. Yoga video every other day for three months.
72. Other workout video every other day for three months.
73. Read 5 nonfiction books.
74. Go through Financial Peace and go to each session.
75. Finish Beth Moore David study.
76. Write 5 letters and include either mom's chicken casserole recipe, the spiced apple cider recipe or Mema's sugar cookie recipe.
77. Order flags for G, B and D.
78. Jog for 20 minutes straight.
79. Drink 5 glasses of water a day for 3 weeks.
80. Plant a tree.
81. Take snack to Gabe's pack.
82. Buy 3 daring accessories and actually wear them.
83. Make a grocery list and shop from ONLY that list 5 times. (1/5)
84. Cut out coupons and actually USE them for above shopping trips.
85. Keep car clean for 6 weeks.
86. Invite Mom and Dad over for dinner once a month.
87. Take one week off from Twitter, including updates from my phone.
88. Take one week off from Facebook, including updates from my phone.
89. Purchase a piece of furniture - real furniture, not installation-required bookshelves from Target.
90. Use passport.
91. Invest in an awesome pair of black shoes.
92. Find an amazing recipe in Southern Living and perfect it.
93. Put all the recipes I clip from magazines in a binder.
94. Reupholster Mema's vanity chair.
95. Work 50 hours in a charity.
96. Decide what sort of nonprofit organization I want to start and research.
97. Take a photography class.
98. Take a ballroom dancing class.
99. Finally hang the lantern I bought 2 years ago.
100. Buy an outfit that fits at White House Black Market.
101. Make a new friend.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
How to open a bottle of wine... or why you should never buy a cheap corkscrew.
Moved into the new apartment today and decided to "celebrate" by having a glass of wine at home, which I was unable to do in the house. Picked up some dinner from O'Charleys, bought some flowers, lit a candle, put on some Bach, and got out my brand new (cheap) corkscrew to open the cabernet I bought for the occasion. Corkscrew went in easily, and then broke off in the cork. Not good. At least I could look at the bottle of wine and enjoy the fact that it was in the apartment.
Then I remembered what a former roommate and I did once in this situation, but since I don't have a hammer, I knocked the neck of the bottle off with a can opener.
Mmmm. That's a good cab.
Then I remembered what a former roommate and I did once in this situation, but since I don't have a hammer, I knocked the neck of the bottle off with a can opener.
Mmmm. That's a good cab.
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